i hate HER.

okay i'm telling myself to stay calm for now.
but there's this sucky pest in my house who totally ruins my life.
since young till even... NOW.

my closest friends know my trouble with her.
and she's none other than this stupid sister of mine.
throughout the holidays she's always cooping at home,
turning on the air con
holding on to both laptops
watching tons of VCDs and TV shows
and refusing to let me do my work.
AND THE WORSE THING IS MY MOM ALWAYS SIDES HER.
WTH.

alright. i've just finished my chem and was intending to do some revision for GP.
so i went into her room and ask her nicely if i could use ONE of the laptops.
SHE REFUSED and she said that cos she needs to surf the net with one and use the other to watch VCD. darn barbaric.

i told her i need it urgently cos the night would be spent on maths, the exact time i could consult my mom. so she reluctantly gave me.
alright. she took out the mouse of the laptop on my hand and said that i shall go without the mouse cos the other mouse is spoiled and she wants this mouse.
so i said " carol chan, i'm doing serious work now and i need this mouse. since you're only watching VCD, you only require your eyes." but she protested and said that she need to adjust the settings of the show.
i didn't care about her and calmly replied: " you're too much and i'm warning you - dont get overboard"

as i slowly close the door behind me, this pest shouted OUT LOUD : " FUCK YOU BITCH!" back in her room. whatthehell. so i slammed open the door, smacked her shoulder and shouted back:" CAROL CHAN YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSE TO USE THIS WORD ON ME!" (this f*** word is a taboo in my family) and she retaliated with her wushu.
she punched my hand and whacked me hard, causing the laptop in my hand to fall. she started screaming, making it look like it was MY fault for hitting her first and spoiling the laptop. My grandpa even had to come all the way up to see what was wrong.

He said that she scolded me and i whacked her once - we're even. BUT THAT'S NOT TRUE.
SHE smacked me. SHE caused the laptop to spoil. SHE complains that i hurted her intentionally. and SHE pushes the blame on ME.
so grandpa was scolding me for being a bad example as an older sister.

OKAY NOW. GET THAT CLEAR. IF I HAVE A CHOICE, I WOULD NEVER WANT HER AS MY SISTER. I WOULD NEVER ACKNOWLEDGE HER. SHE'S A DISGRACE TO MY NAME. I'D RATHER BE AN ONLY CHILD. WHY WOULD ANYONE WANTS A SPOILED BRAT AS HER SISTER? FACE IT, WE'RE WORLDS APART AND SOMEHOW OR RATHER IT'S VERY DIFFICULT TO LIVE WITH THIS DOUBLE-FACED CREATURE WHO APPEARS ANGELIC IN FRONT OF OTHERS AND BEING DEVIL-LIKE TO HER SISTER WHILE SHOWING THE OTHERS SHE'S THE INNOCENT ONE.

i had enough of this life.

4:38 PM ღ i thought of you.