Rest in peace.

I couldn't sleep after the news of Kaiyan passing came before midnight.
Tossing and turning, I fell asleep only through prayers.
and this morning, tears came with sweat during morning run.

someone said before,
that 2 things Cindy can never handle,
is stress and death.

The loss of a good friend and classmate struck me at a wrong time.
But still, I think Kaiyan is really a great person.
Like what Alfred has said,
she's such a strong girl that I really felt that many of us pale in comparison.
Such optimism,
such unfailing heart,
Heaven is just unfair to her.
为什么好人都不长命呢？

with her passing, it really made me understood that life is really fragile.
for anyone who is reading this now,
I would urge you to start cherishing people around you,
because you'll never know what might happen in the future.
Don't start regretting in the future.

Familiar faces, distant faces,
I've seen them all today.
The funeral today was exactly like a cohort gathering,
except that this was not a good reason to gather.
I was praying throughout the ceremony,
and at least I managed to keep that composure.

Rest in peace, my friend.
I'll keep you in prayers.

凡劳苦和负重担的， 你们都到我跟前来， 我要使你们安息。

Come to me, all you that labour, and are burdened, and I will refresh you. Take up my yoke upon you, and learn of me, because I am meek, and humble of heart: and you shall find rest to your souls. For my yoke is sweet and my burden light.

There's this song for all who are grieving over the loss of a friend.

Bye Bye - Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were the times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky
'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

5:56 PM ღ i thought of you.