if i'd used both my hands to cover my eyes, can i lie to myself that i didn't see a thing, continue deceiving myself that there's still a chance, and pretend that all these didn't happen and what i fear most will not come?
before you know it, it's november already.
i'm really desperate for help, be it nucleophilic substitution of brains, or divine intervention of any sort.
Anything but holding up my hands and bowing down to reality.