caught in the middle

I got rejected by NTU LMS. I swear I was really disappointed, the rejection letter was simply heart-stabbing. But what can I do? I heard that there were 1300 plus applicants vying for the intake of 60. I bet the rest must have better qualities like better GP grades to get selected. How I envy Yubin, who managed to get in.


After acceptance into NIE, the problem that comes next is the hostel. I had a hard time persuading my mom to let me stay in the hostel. The problem arose when I forgot to inform ruiqi that I might stay with cec if I ever choose NIE (which I did). My mom prefers me to stay with cec, which finally got her to agree with my stay in hostel. But I landed ruiqi in trouble cos she couldn't find a roomie, when she really need one since she stays really far.

I'm really sorry, ruiqi.
I understand the point you're viewing from, and it's unfair to you.
Really sorry for being so selfish.




and that being the point, I'm feeling superbly guilty now. To both of them. I'm stuck in the middle of the choices, and it's a hard one to make cos both my friends are equally dear to me.
Ohgosh, I must have made ruiqi so upset and troubled cec so much with roomie stuff. SHOOT ME >.< AREN'T I RETARDED ENOUGH?

now I can't think of any perfect solution yet. HELP. graaaahh headache.


divine intervention, any?




by the way, I was regretting choosing NIE as soon as I picked up the trainee handbook. there's like never-ending numbers of rules and regulations. and still strict as ever.

since it's the only choice left, I can only choose to gladly accept it and be determined to be a good teacher in the future.




on a random note, while typing an sms, i realised that using dictionary, 735328 would spell both SELECT and REJECT. and to choose between the words is just the shift button.

how i wish making choices could be as easy as that.

11:36 PM ღ i thought of you.